So am I am sure some of you noticed in my Scavenger Hunt Sunday post this past week we are expecting another little one. We actually just found out last Thursday ourselves, well I found out on Thur and had to wait until Friday morning to tell my husband. I am sure a lot of you are saying to yourself "she should be keeping that a secret, or why is she not waiting until she is in the "safe" 2nd trimester".
I'll tell you I did a lot of debating about how I wanted to handle this news both on my blog and in real life. I'm not sure if many of you know this but I was pregnant before Addison. We lost that baby at 9 weeks and 3 days. Well after we had seen the little heartbeat and well after the doctor told us we were "out of the woods" for a miscarriage. We excitedly announced our news only to have to, a week later, tell everyone that we were no longer expecting. It was so very painful, but also very comforting to have the support that we would have been missing out on if no one knew.
Then when we got pregnant with Addison I spent so much of my pregnancy so worried that the same thing was going to happen. We waiting until we were in the 2nd trimester to really tell many people about it. It was stressful and I felt like I couldn't really get excited just in case something happened and I was going to be crushed again. Don't get me wrong we were so excited but I felt like I couldn't share that excitement a lot of the time.
So this time around we decided we are going to take a different path and we are going to share our (very surprised) joy with everyone right away. This will be our last baby and I want to at least try to enjoy every minute of it that I can and I want others to enjoy it with me. I know that I will never get away from the nagging fear that grips me every time I go to the bathroom and I'm sure every time I step foot in my doctor's office. This time we are doing what feels right, whether it is what others think is right or not.
For those of you that care to know this was not a planned thing, I was really sick a few days with a stomach bug where I was not able to keep anything down, including my BC pills. All it takes I guess is a few days :)