Coffee smells like freshly ground heaven

“It’s amazing how the World begins to change through the eyes of a cup of coffee!!” ~ Donna A Favors

Oh how true this quote is for me.

I love coffee, I mean the word love does not even do justice to the way I feel about coffee. Especially Starbucks coffee, I swear I think they put something in it, maybe crack? So before we started TTC I decided I was going to try and be “perfect” so that we had less of a chance of something going wrong once we got pregnant (we all know how that turned out).

So after reading the “Bible” of the fertility world “Taking Charge of Your Fertility” by Toni Wechler, MPH, I immediately put down my crack pipe and decided that I was going to give up caffeine, alcohol, processed foods, Advil, and so on and so forth. Well giving up coffee was a challenge, and that is putting in mildly. I felt like an addict locked in a padded room only my room wasn’t padded. It sucked and I am sure that it sucked more for those around me. I had horrible headaches, I was exhausted, I was b*%#@y, I couldn’t sleep, I had trouble
concentrating at work, you get the picture. This lasted about a week and a half or so.

"Oh, that was not too long." you are thinking.

Well you try doing it. It seemed like f o r e v e r! So I did great on this plan to be “perfect” until I found out about the miscarriage. Okay maybe not right when I found out, since as you know I was not really functioning at that point. However a few days later, after my brain pulled itself from the deep dark place that it went for protection, one of my first thoughts was “Well at least I get have coffee again”. I know, a strange thing to think after everything, but you would have to understand just how much I love coffee.

So I have decided that I am not going to try and be “perfect” this time. I am not giving up coffee…. *Gasp* ….. Judge me all you want, but maybe not being “perfect” will make Judas decided not to betray me this time around. So I have my fingers crossed, and a warm, wonderful paper cup of coffee to my lips as a type this. From Starbucks of course….